Still Here

I am still here and still blogging on Xanga occasionally. Life is still rough. I am in Ruidoso this weekend for what I thought would be a great weekend but found out the reason I am here has been postponed. Continue to go to xanga and look for me. Ask for my site if you want to read it and can't find me :)

Moved to Xanga

I am now blogging on xanga when I feel like it. Feel free to message me if you would like my site. TWIG has her own picture website and I am debating about whether or not to do like some family and friends and give her her own blog site or keep her hidden for safety purposes. I am not sure I want my child's name and pictures out there for all who want to see to view.

Things are still not final in my crazy life but I am trying to move upward and outward even though some days I feel very depressed.

Moving May or May not blog

I am moving my blogging to a different site. Xanga. I also use VOX and will get the websites posted later.

My Crazy Life

Well as you can tell it has been a few months since I posted. My life has been extremely crazy over the last few months. If you would like to know why feel free to email me privately.

I am back home with my parents for the moment and thus far things are working out fine. It's good to be around family and friends who love and care about us.

As I said above if you are interested in learning about my life over the past few months feel free to email me and I will fill you in.

Hope all is well ~i~

Stupid Mistake

Well I made a stupid mistake when I took the daycare position. I quit last Thursday and am back at the insurance office right now but don't know where I will be next week.

I'm also looking at somewhere else for daycare after the baby comes because I do not want to take my child somewhere that is not what I think is best for my child.

I Made my Decision

Well I made my decision. I talked to the daycare director last Friday and decided that I would go ahead and take the preschool teacher position at the daycare. It was kind of a tough decision to make but I will have to live with it. At least this way after my baby is born, daycare and Mommy will all be in the same place and hopefully be a little easier. Plus I will get a bit of a discount since I am working the same place my child attends daycare.

I really hated to leave my boss at the insurance office but I kind of feel it will be better. I hope I am leaving on good enough terms if I ever decide to work in the insurance business again. I am kind of thinking maybe becoming a preschool teacher will help me decide what I really want to do with my life. Maybe I will go back to college and get my Early Childhood Education degree or some sort of degree in Education. No matter what I know that God will guide me where He wants me to go.

Until next time ~i~

What to do?

What to do? What to do? The director from the daycare just called me & wants to meet with me to discuss the positions she has available. SO, I guess I will meet with her tomorrow & figure out what is going to work out the best for me. If I work at the daycare my hours may be screwy but I will get a discount on my childcare rate. I will also have to teach kids all day & then go home to one so I'm not 100% sure I want to do that either. Although I do not know what will happen when I go on maternity leave at the insurance office either. No matter what happens I will have to work after the baby is born & if I have to drive up here to Ruidoso everyday for daycare then I may as well work up here too.

I like kids & at one time I wanted to be a teacher so working at the daycare would fulfill that for me. But I also kind of like working at an office too.

I guess I will just have to keep on praying and asking God for guidance and direction. Your prayers would be appreciated too.

Until next time ~i~