So Down on Myself

I don't know why but I have been down on myself lately. I am really stressed out about everything going on. I feel like I don't have time to really do anything. I go to work and I come home and work and I am so tired. Also things keep changing at work. I am ready to quit.

I hope that something comes along in the way of a Post Office job or something.

I really want to go back to school and get my Bachelor's and then I can work with older kids and only 9 months out of the year instead of 12.

Don't get me wrong, I love kids and I love the little ones but it's kind of stressful with 10 of them and 3 of them screaming at the same time (especially when you are the only one in the room). I love one of my coworkers literally to death as I would not have the job if it were not for her but the other one needs to learn to help us out and not BS around.

Anyway, prayers are still needed.

It's Been Awhile & I feel So DUMB

It's been a little while since I posted anything to the blog. Work is going better now. Last week I was kind of ready to quit and for the wrong reasons. One of the girls I work with was not pulling her share.

I am still not sure what I am going to do in September when the other girls return from maternity leave. I've heard there is a full time position at the daycare but I am not really sure if I want to stay there or try my hand at the PO.

I feel so dumb because I feel like I have let Lloyd down. Our checking account is a mess because of the Pampered Chef business (my fault; I put in a charge for over what it really was) so now I am starting ALL OVER with that. I also feel like I have let him down because I can not keep the house clean (or rather even get it clean to begin with), keep up with the laundry, keep him fed, do my wifely duties.

Hopefully we can work things out. Life has been crazy though with practice for the Billy the Kid Pageant, work and everything else.

Relax

Whew! I started my first full week at the daycare today. Things may begin to get fun as one of the girls finally took her maternity leave. The other is finishing out this week but is off Tuesday & Thursday.

The kids are pretty good. I am working mostly with the babies to 2 year olds. The ones I love the most!

Lloyd and I are doing more at our house and FOR US. We do go down to get Cocoa out of the yard but we are not spending ALL our free time down there anymore. I am happier to be doing that too.

Things are pretty busy since we both work in town now and don't get home till 5:30 and 6.

I put my application in to OIC at the Post Office (PO) so we'll see what happens there.

Until the next post ~i~

Boy am I Tired

Whew! Finally a slower day. I am working at the Post Office the next two days while my in-law's have gone to get Erin. So far I have survived working at First Christian Church Child Development Center (FCCCDC), but I have also only worked for 2 days.

Yesterday was a LONG Day! I worked from about 9 until almost 8 last night. We had a staff meeting. I think I am going to go ahead and put my application in to OIC at the Post Office if any offices in this area open up. I do not have to accept the position if I get it but I will at least have it as a back up IF I do get "the boot" from the daycare center in late August or September when things there are re-evaluated. Hopefully I will get to stay on but you never know what may happen. So, continued prayers are greatly appreciated.

My in-law's seem to have had a mood change. They actually bought Lloyd a cake for his birthday! I didn't think they were going to.

Other than being tired from working, things are going well. I am so happy to finally be working a "Real Job" again!

~i~

First Day on the Job & Weighing Options

YEA! I survived my first day working at the daycare! It was mostly a day of training but I loved it! It felt so good to finally be truly employed again.

When I went down to get Cocoa though I was asked about OICing at a Post office near our house. The postmaster there is going to move to a different office in August when one of the other Postmasters retired. I told my mother in law I would consider it but also do not want to leave my boss at the new job "hanging". Yes I am supposedly working full time at the daycare until the other girls return from Maternity leave but who knows where I might be when they return from their leave.

I am also not sure I really want to work at the Post Office anymore.

So, for those of you praying, please continue to pray that God leads me in the right job decision direction.

~i~

Weekend Away

What a great weekend away from everything this has been. It was wonderful to enjoy the marriage of two wonderful friend's this after noon and to remember when Lloyd and I took our own vows just 14 months ago.

I don't know what is going on at home and I don't think I really want to know. Lloyd and I are DEFINITELY going to start living our own lives and worrying about us and nobody else.

We have to live for US and not for others. I have known this for a long time but it is now really starting to sink in.

I hope everyone has a safe & happy 4th of July weekend.

~i~

God Answers Prayers

The saying God does provide is very true. God does answer prayers also. As you can read from previous posts, I have been in search of a job for a few weeks now. Well, the search is over. Thursday morning I interviewed for a job at a daycare center in Ruidoso. Friday, I got the job!

Sorry dear mother-in-law, I can no longer take your kids to Roswell or Carrizozo.

I am a much happier person already and I have not even started my new job!

I start my new job on Tuesday. YEA! Next week I will work Tuesday and Wednesday as I already had been scheduled at the post office to work while my inlaw's go to Louisianna to get their foster daughter who had been visiting relatives.

I told my mother in law last night, that there was a possibility and after I got the call this morning, I told her that I started Tuesday but had told my boss at the daycare center that I would have to give my notice at the post offie and could start FOR GOOD on the 11th!

Just remember, God answers prayers! God does provide! He gives us what we need when we need it.

God Bless ~i~